At 44 you would think that I would be over insecurities, but guess what? You are as human at 44 as you are at 13. In the last month I have had a lot of self beat up moments because of what I see happening around me. Folks get to do cool things, have shiny things, are prettier, are thinner, are doing amazing things... on and on. I let it make me feel awful.
I let the shiny world of social media overshadow what my real life is like. To my defense, there were days that I couldn't leave our hill because of ice and snow and that adds a bit of cray cray to the mix.
Here are some things I have had to tell myself:
Everyone is doing cool things everywhere all the time, and so am I.
Everyone is trying to be as beautiful as they can on the outside and inside, and so am I.
Everyone has new things, old things, cute things, fun things, hot things, and so do I.
Everyone is trying to figure out life just like I am.
That's it. I had to tell myself that I am not worse because I'm not at the conference that is cool at the moment, buying the kitchiest thing on Etsy, or speed crafting cozies for everything in the most stylish manner ever.
In fact, I bet someone might be envious of my life.
Take today. I slept in until 9am because I had gotten home late from an awards ceremony where I won two awards. My husband made organic oatmeal with cherries in it while I took my shower and got my coffee ready.
I worked with three awesome clients developing new and exciting ideas. I potentially landed another client. I sat in my quiet cottage with my dog at my feet and my cat perched on my desk while my husband ran errands for me that included all of the grocery shopping and picking up my books at the library.
I made amazing vegetarian tofu sloppy joe's for dinner with hand chopped coleslaw on the side from scratch. I tested Google hangouts with my daughter who just got a job yesterday at her local library and is doing well in what, we hope, will be her last semester of college.
These are amazing things. Simple life things that happen every day here in my cottage and I forget when I focus outside how great this is right here. I am lucky every single day and if you hear me complain otherwise, just roll your eyes and walk away. I have nothing to complain about over here.