I am getting ready to go to Camp Mighty this week and it is probably one of the most exciting things I have ever done. The crazy thing that keeps going through my mind though (never mind the crazy multistop travel) is that I am not young enough or dress fashionably enough.
When it comes down to it those are two areas that I struggle with.
Let's be honest. The internet, as we know it, with its multitude of endless possibilities didn't even happen until my daughter was 9. My family was well established before you had to worry about wifi. I'm telling you this because I was a mom before the dot.com. I didn't have the opportunity to crowd source every decision, share every moment, or feel capable/incapable with every move we made. We lived in the olden times when you just did stuff and hoped for the best!
So, when I am with new mommies or younger folks I realize that I have this prehistory that they might not even have. I'm not old, but I sure have seen a lot and not much phases me. I'm just older.
As for fashion. My mom was hyper critical of the way I dressed and I have always been anxious about it. I decided years ago that jeans and a classic top were just about all I could manage without feeling like something out of a weird costume box. I have never wanted to spend money on clothes, there are too many other cool things to spend money on and when I find a pair of jeans that I like I buy 5 and call it a day.
Not to mention that I gave up corporate dress code when I moved to the Ozarks to live life on my terms. That meant no binding black skirts, hose, or other uncomfortable polyester blend crap. I can't preach a simple lifestyle and living by your own rules if I am wearing the corporate costume.
What I have to learn is to be ok with that. This I am still working on.
All that said, at 44 I finally feel prettier and more confident then I have in my whole life. Good teeth, nice glasses, pretty hair, and a simple outfit - it is what I have to take me into the world.
Do you struggle with feeling pretty, fashionable, young/old enough? You aren't alone and I bet there are more of us then let on!